Could this be PND?

[Ukulele]

My DD is 10 months old and for the past few months I have been feeling increasingly weird.

She is lovely, a really happy little girl but I feel like an outsider looking in. Like she isn't really 'mine'. I give her everything she needs and everyone says I am doing a great job but I am feeling really disconnected from the world and like I am not a mum at all.

I really struggle to trust anyone else with her, I get images in my head of terrible things happening and can't relax or enjoy the time to myself.

I have also become a total hypocrondiact, since Christmas I have convinced myself i have any number of awful things wrong with me.

I have recently split up with my ex-dp (dd's dad) but I really feel okay about that. It was a mutual decision and we have remained on good terms. He still gives me lots of practical help.

Does any of this sound like typical PND?

Reading back I can see that I need to talk to the doctor about this as something isn't right

Hi ukulele - I'm no doctor so can't diagnose you, but it sounds to me like going to your GP or speaking to your HV would be a good step to take to put your mind at rest, or seek treatment if you need it.

I have PND and have experienced what you describe as a weird disconnected feeling from my DS. I'm normally a v clucky gal and thought I would adore being a mum (yes spot those high expectations) but I've found it v hard and have a lot of negative and intrusive thoughts. These are all symptomatic of PND.

Hope you feel better soon. If it is PND then the biggest step is acknowledging it so your post is a big step in the right direction. Good luck :)