Been on prozac since march when I was pregnant with dd . Stopped taking them about 3 weeks ago as the flat emotions/numbness has gotten too much to take.
Dd is 6 months old now and I still haven't bonded with her. Have lost the feeling wtih ds (6yo) as well. Am finding it very difficult.
Have stopped taking my risperidone as well.
I look after my children to the best of my abilities adn act like I adore them so noone will ever know - especially not them. I am always kissing and cuddling them. Dd is never left to cry and I'm alwways playing with her and making her laugh. Ds is such a good child, lovely to be around.
I've returned to work as was finding it tough staying at home but it hasn't really helped. I don't miss dd when I'm working though everyone assumes I do.
I'm under occupational health at work and doing a phased return (shorter hours and supported one to one) plus lots of meetings about how I'm doing. As far as they are concerned I'm still taking my tablets and seeing the doctor regularly (supposed to be going every month though haven't been for a while). I'm under pressure to get dd sleeping through the night as they are worried it will affect my mental health if I am tired all the time (dd wakes several times a night). Everyone is pressuring me to leave her to cry at night (something I'm against) especially my manager and hr contact.
I had a bad childhood and no longer speak to my parents and I want my children to have the best possible. But this numbness means whatever I do I feel they're suffering.
How much longer until this gets better?