I am 35 weeks pg with #3. Didn't suffer postnatal depression with the other 2 and loved every minute - but my life was so different then (despite the eldest only being 5). This baby is being born in completeley different circumstances. We are financially in a crisis, having lost all our money on a business we bought. So much debt and no money at all - nothing for a crisis and really very little to live on (I currently budget £20 per week for food and have to make do!)
I have no job when it's time to go back to work - I have applied to retrain but don't know if I have been accepted yet - I am worried about not being (should find out shortly), but can't stop worrying.
I look at my life and wonder how the hell I managed to end up in such a mess. I adore my 2 kids and my husband (although DH does suffer from deprssion and can make life very difficult - he lacks motivation and I feel I constantly nag in order to get him to do anything - he does work but earns very little.
I am currently at the stage where I can't seem to stop crying and I am constantly shouting at my kids! I feel like such a failure and although I don't think I am suffering from depression - am just down at the moment - I am so scared I will suffer with postnatal depresion. What can I do to stop it? I feel like I am already on the slippery slope - I have always managed to keep it together - I am quite philosophical and don't worry unnecessarily.
Sorry it's a bit long-winded, and thanks for reading and any advise.