Please can I just have a rant!?

[Memoo]

I am so anxious. Have so much to do as it is DD1's 12th birthday tomorrow. Parents are coming to stay and need to clean/tidy the house. Also promised DD I would make her a cake which I was going to do this morning but have just realised darling fecking husband has used all the eggs up last night. So I have to go out to the shops and buy some more which shouldn't be difficult but it is causing me huge amounts of stress. DS is off school with an eye infection and still haven't phoned school becuase don't want to speak to anyone. so school will phone me any minute demanding to know where he is, even though he has already been off for two days this weeks and I have told them he has an eye infection. I have taken all my meds and nothing is calming the anxiety, feel sick, ahhhhhhhh

Hi, Make a list of what you need to do, then come over to the Flylady thread here Then post on list on it. We will keep you going. No need to figure out what flylady is we just post a thing to do list and tick them off when we stop to have a cuppa. It might help you to know that we've got tons to do and no time to chat so I'm going to sign in now so you can see me then post my list after I've mad a cuppa see you over there

Rant away. Deep breaths, one step at a time, your meds are in there working away, you will feel calmer soon. Is there anyone you can text to ask them to call school for you?

Ah yeah I will text DH and get him to phone them, thats a good idea

Right, a list!

This is my list
W/M load in and going
Dirty kit soaking
Make beds
Tidy kitchen
Food Shopping
W/M
Fish pie
1 hour thingy I'll explain below.
Post office
Dry cleaners
Look for vouchers & Wii game lost somewhere in the house still!
How to make your house look clean in 1 hours
Try this - slipshod cleaning. No detailed cleaning required; vacuum the middle of the floors only!

Set a timer for 10 minutes to work on each of 7 tasks:
Vacuum
Dust
Mop
Polish Mirrors and Doors
Purge magazines
Change Sheets
Empty all the rubbish

This takes approximately one hour; some tasks take less than 10 minutes.

See you later off I go

Have faff'd about
W/M load in and going done
Dirty kit soakingdone
Make beds done
Tidy kitchen done
Food shopping No need have every thing if I make a paella instead
W/M reloaded & booted others ready to go
Right going to that 1 hour thingy now
Post office
Dry cleaners
Doing that 1 hour thingy now

Memoo - remember you on these threads before and reckon you might remember me posting about severe episode of depression/anxiety last year and still not fully recovered - awful blips coming whenever they feel like it! I understand your anxiety so well. If it's any consolation I think thinking about having so much to do is worse than actually doing it, unless you are completely on the floor (so to speak)

Can you not buy a birthday cake - the supermarkets have nice ones these days. I know you are stressed about going out,but can you manage a very quick trip. Do you find the deep breathing stuff any help, breaths in and longer ones out, feeling the belly rise and fall and just concentrating on that for a short time. It works for me sometimes. You do need 15 minutes on the bed or sofa (preferably with no one else there) -
Is your parent's visit going to be a help or hindrance. Just try to think of one thing at a time and know that by tomorrow evening it will all be over. Anxiety is an absolute bugger isn't it.

Hope you feel a bit better soon and sending you warm wishes.