Seeing someone every week - feelings

[snowmash]

My GP's been seeing me weekly for 3 months (mostly with my in waterfall mode :( ).

I'm still not on medication/don't think I have a treatment plan yet, because it all depends on a psychiatrist who now wants to talk to pharmacy/neurology.

I don't see why my GP is seeing me, and said so more gently - their response was to reel off all the physical stuff I have wrong (and say that Dr X would help the f/backs go away).

But that still doesn't explain why she's letting me drip all over her office (the psych doesn't think I need a CPN to talk to each week, and I agree as there are people worse off).

I think some of this is wanting some of the physical stuff to go away, and all the PTSD stuff...but I still don't see why I should be wasting her time.

How do other people get round these feelings?

I don't know:

Maybe she just wants to check you're ok and offer some support.

If she felt you were wasting her time, she wouldn't do it.

Perhaps she'll feel she doesn't need to be so attentive once you have a treatment plan. But in the meantime is worried and wants to help.

xxx

You're right that she wouldn't do it if she didn't want to.

Hmm...maybe I need to convince myself it's ok (she works very part-time, and is very popular, so that doesn't help me rationalise).

Thanks

snowmash forgive me but i can't help feeling that the reason you want to stop seeing her is not because you are wasting her time but because you are uncomfortable with support right now. But you need some support, it is not good to be totally isolated even if it feels tempting sometimes

Thanks madmouse. I think you're right - at the moment there's nothing I would like more to just have a few days/week completely by myself.

Thanks for the insight.

Just to say your GP sounds like she cares, hang in there.

Mmm. I think she will want me to disappear once she gets the letter from the psychiatrist. It will change her view of me diametrically :( . At least that will tell me once she's had it, and if she doesn't give me further appts I will be able to disappear.

why would she???

Because the letter has lots of details about what I deserved, right down to my mother sending me down to him and what I let him do.

snowmash you didn't deserve any of it. it happened to you, awfully, wrongly. You deserved safety and protection. Your GP knows that.

I just wanted to say thanks for your post, madmouse. I've read it several times today, but don't quite believe that she does (which isn't to say I don't believe you).

Maybe Dr X has already told her stuff - she said they'd talked about me and they both felt very sorry for me :( (not good)