How to I get back to normal?

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Ive been suffering with what I thought was bad pmt but its gone on too long. I think it could be mild depression, Ive had it before.

I feel panicky, weepy, paranoid and today i have been filled with tremendous rage. I'm losing my temper very easily, i normally have the patience of a saint. Ive been short with dd, i have been short with acquaintances and today I told someone to f**k off. This is not me and im worried that im slipping down a slippery slope. It's only mild but today im feeling like ive got severe pmt, im so angry. I also nearly had a panic attack on the bus. I know this will pass and im not unduly worried but is there something i can do to help myself?

Perhaps you could give yourself a treat tomorrow or at the weekend, something to lift your spirits a little. If you plan it now, you will have it to look forward to.

Thanks thats true. I just feel like im on a treadmill at the moment.

I can imagine how you feel as I have a lot of your symptoms and I know I am very stressed at the moment. I only suggested the treat because it is what I have promised myself this weekend to get me through the next few days.

Thanks its a good idea. Im so unenthusiastic at the mo. What's your treat?

Humph! Well, not much as money is one of the issues that is stressing me out and I bought a new jumper yesterday! As dh is away this week and I am doing everything for my four, I have promised myself a lie in at the weekend. Perhaps a ready cook meal one night. Not much, I know. In fact, you come up with something better and I will consider it!

You've got to get it where you can , hey!

Do you think I sound stressed rather than depressed?

just bumping because im hoping for a miracle

Just wanted to say that you might have a better day tomorrow. I have been feeling down over the past week or so, it is due to lack of sleep due to newborn. But today I had a good day. I agree about having things to look forward to - I have been making a real effort to see and keep in touch with friends as it's easy to cut yourself off when you feel miserable. Another thing I've done is join an exercise class. Anyhow just wanted to let you know you're not alone and we all have bad days and hope you feel better soon. Big Hugs!

Thanks Joybee. Ive had a bad month and I know it will get better but I felt a little out of control today. Im not generally an angry person but I felt real fury today.

You are right, im avoiding people at the moment, I keep cancelling things.

Im glad to hear that you had a good day, i can remember the tiredness of a new born.

If you are feeling really bad and it has been going on a while why don't you see your doc?

I dont want to really give into it and have to take ads.

are you taking anything for the PMT? have you tried fish oils/starflower oil/evening primrose oil?

If you feel you might be going a little over the edge, could you start 30 mins a day exercise? Should make a difference (but you must make yourself do it).

You sound stressed to me.

Fair enough. But I don't think it is giving into it. You don't necessarily have to take ads. Is there anything that has triggered how your feeling?

Im taking vitamin b6 and magnesium, ive only just started taking it again, so i need to give it a chance. Ive tried evening oil of primrose and it did work for a while. Do you know if it goes out of date as I have a huge bottle from about 2 years ago? Exercise is a good idea I must force myself to do something. At the moment it takes all my energy to do very little.

It should have a date on it somewhere? I found EPO/starflower oil did nothing for me but fish oils have improved my PMT no end - I hear they are supposed to be good for warding off depression as well so it might be worth trying them.

I think being stressed/depressed takes a lot of mental energy (I haven't been depressed before but I have been stressed!) and that makes you feel tired.

Im hoping im stressed! If it is depression, I think its only mild.

Fingers crossed for a good day for us both tomorrow. Off to watch Lost. x

I just dont like feeling so angry. im really worried about getting on the bus tommorrow.

im going to go to bed in a bit and hope that will do the trick.