Terrible rage

[beckstar24]

I have been up and down for years, more anxiety for years, but recently the rage has been overwhelming. I am mean mean to the kids and DH, and hate myself for it. It is part PMS definitely as have always suffered - but all hormones make me much much worse.

I'm waiting for cbt - don't really want meds as scared they'll dull everything, but equally cannot continue to carry on bein such a b*tch. I have worked out that drinking the nightbefore makes me much worse the next day.

Anyone else have this? What helps you? I feel if I don't sort this I will end up losing my family - which is possibly what I deserve

Oh beckstar don't be so hard on yourself. I'm sure a lot of us have felt the same.

I have awful PMS and had it all over xmas, I felt ashamed of myself for being so awful to my DH on several occasions. But he knows its not the "real" me. I don't get to the stage of real rage, because if I am in that frame of mind, I remove myself from the situation. I go for a walk or just a lie down cry.
I also actually made the decision to go the my GP, I went yesterday. Funny you should say what you did about alcohol, that was the first thing she said-avoid it during the PMS time. She also said-eat every few hours, eat wholemeal bread, drink lots of water, and take vitamin of B6 and B12, also evening primrose oil for the very sore boobs. I hope you get your cbt appt soon.x