How to pick myself back up

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I'm just not feeling myself at all, I was very busy work wise last year and didnt give myself enough break, my ex's Dad comitted suicide in a horrendous way and my ex wouldnt let me go to the funeral, my boyfriends granny died, we were quite close, I had a pregnancy scare that left me feeling very emotional and worried and I hardly saw anyone over Christmas due to the snow. I hvae now found a breast lump that I am getting scanned on Monday and I have also had severe endometriosis pains. Im drinking too much too and gained 10lbs over Christmas. Im not usually a look on the down side kind of person but I feel a bit helpless at the moment. I just want to go to bed and feel like crying a lot, everything seems a bit frightenning at the moment. Does anyone have advice on how to snap myself out of this, Ive got butterflies in my tummy all the time and also sleeping is a nightmare, literally, I feel like Im hopping from one nightmare to hte next.

Hello, I have read your post and feel so overwhelmed by what you've been through / are going through. You've been through soooo much. You need to be much kinder to yourself and stop using phrases such as 'snap out of'. You've had a really tough time and it's no wonder you have butterflies and you're not sleeping well. I don't have any advice really, just wanted to let you know that I think you are being too harsh on yourself xx sorry that's not terribly helpful!