eating disorders at christmas.

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I am a recovering anorexic, I struggle to keep my weight up and its hard work. anyone else struggle at christmas. Im surrounded by food. I keep looking at it, and the thought of it makes me feel sick. I look at everyone else stuffing their faces and I wonder how they can have so little self control. but i envy them their ability to just let go and eat and drink as much as they want. by christmas night I have panic attacks at the thought of eating another morsel and tend to starve myself in the following days.

anyone else?

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I am recovering too. I know how hard it is. I am trying to put weight on at the moment in the hopes of conceiving.

I am different to you though in that I don't feel sickened by food or others lack of control, I just feel so sad and envious that they can enjoy themselves but I can't seem to let myself do that.

I do have the panic attacks before after and during meals and I definitely find myself overcompensating in the days before and after. I think each time I was at my lowest weight was at Christmas time due to all the extra stress and self punishment.

Hope you can keep strong and remind yourself that food is not the enemy, nor is it a reward or an indulgence. It is life giving.