Being depressed and sometimes feels like life doesn't worth it...

[REDFRUIT]

Hiya !!

I feel really guilty with myself because I shouldn't feel like that..I've been taking AD for 3 months now, I see regurlarly a concellor. But my lif is still like a rollercaster...I've got a gorgeous DD and a DP and I'm really proud of them, my only problem is that I'm not from England, I'm from Angers (France) and I miss so much my family, it's monday morning and I'm going to be all day on my own with my dd..I feel really lonely and I wish my mum could turn up for a coffee but it's never going to happen..I'm going to France in 1 month but it seems so far away...You must think I feel sorry for myself but I just can't help it but feeling tearful all the time. I work part-time in a job in which pay rubbish money, I'm looking for something else and even in that I'm not successful..It stresses me out, I feel like a failure and a loser...did you ever feel like that ??? Please helpppppppp.

You are not a loser at all. You have a great DD & DP. Although you miss your family, and this is understandable, how lucky you are to have a family that loves you and welcomes your visits. Maybe start a countdown chart to the visit to keep your spirits up and every day you can talk to your DD about it? Give your Mum a call today and start planning what you will do when you get there.
Keep looking for another job - you were successful in getting the one you have and you will be successful again when the right job comes along.
Meanwhile are there any mother & baby/toddler groups you could join or take DD swimming or something so you are not in all day?

Thank you for your answer !!! I guess it's just a question of moving my ar....Today, I've been to the library and to the park..my DD did her first step 10 minutes ago !!Today was a good day...tomorrow work ! You must think I'm a wingher but sometimes it's just stronger than me ! What about you ? How are you ? Are you from London too ??

No I live up in Nottingham.
Things are pretty good for me at the moment - am 15 wks PG with my first so I have some fun to look forward to!
Don't think you're a whinger at all - we all have bad days when we need to vent our frustration! How lovely to have your DD's first step to cheer you up - came on the right day!

Hello Jackstini !!!

Congratulations !!! It's so great !! 15 weeks ! That means you had your first scan 3 weeks ago ?? What did you feel when you saw your baby for the first time ?? Are you exited ?? Are you following the pregnancy week by week ?? I had a book like that !! I feel you are giving me your positives stuff then !!! Today was a good day, I managed with the stress so I'm quite glad !! How is it in Nottingham ?? I'm going in december for a wedding ! Thanks for answering to me..:-)

Hi Redfruit - yes it was really exciting and a couple of tears slipped out! I am following it yes - keep looking in the book to see what size it is now and how it's developing. Just an amazing time.
Nottingham is great, lots to see and do - wherabouts is the wedding? Are you coming with DP & DD? Glad you had a good day yesterday and hope the stress stays away today too

Hello Jackstini !!

Hope you are alright ? Are the morning sickness gone ?? I'm good today, yesterday I've been to a Ann summers party, OH MY GOD..I didn't know what to expect ! Have you been to one before ?? It was funny !! I don't know where is the wedding exactly and no DD is not invited ! Tomorrow is pay day and it's the week end for me as I work part-time, so I know a little girl who is going to get some new outfits !! She's so tall, already 84 cm !! When she was born, she was 57 cm for 10 pounds, let me tell you that I felt her, hahaha..Ok I have to go to my boring job now, what job do you do ?? Hope you have nice day !!

Hi RF - Yes I used to be a rep for Ann Summers about 15 years ago! Hope you had fun
Morning sickness almost gone but I did have one of those monents yesterday when you hold onto the sink for ages. How old is your dd? bet you have lots of fun shopping for her clothes - how cute!
I work for a nail company (false nails, treatments etc) - they are based in California but I run the UK side of the company. One benefit is that I work from home around 60% of the time so am not too panicked about having to go back to work after the baby is born as I will be in the next room.