Fed up with feeling unloved, unsupportive and poverty stricken.

[poshsinglemum]

Hi all,
I'm writing this in the early hours of the morning as I can't sleep.
I've been single for practically ten years after a horrendously abusive relationship. Ive had previous mental health issues.
I would love a relationship but no luck at all.
I'm starting to feel fundamentally unlovable, useless and like a rather weak member of the human race.
I have suffered from a lot of bullying in the past and sometimes I feel it's because i'm not a strong specimen. I just get so down as I feel like everything boils down to survival of the fittest and I'm clearly not the fittest.
I spent all day yesterday snapping at dd (poor lovely thing) as I'm so tires and suspect I have depression.
I find it so hard to move on from people who I care about who don't feel the same way.
My sister is a highly successful psychiatrist and I can't believe we came from the same parents.
Just fed up of being sick, poor unloved and self-pitying.
The label of being a single parent as hit me hard as I feel like a stigmatised group. I always have felt stigmatised lond before becoming a mum though.

unsupported that should read.

Should also mention that mum has cancer so I no longer get support from my parents which is very hard.

I have had similar thoughts about myself. It is typical in depression and after bullying and abuse. I have had these. I am waiting for cognitive therapy, I have heard it is very good.

Just read on another thread you didn't find this helpful. I hope you get the help you need.
I know the power of these thoughts. Sometimes I feel they are 100% true and at other times know its just the low self esteem and emotional abuse.

If it helps you are not alone.It could have been me writing what you wrote.