Finding it difficult to rationalise

[sinking]

I have namechanged to post here.

I'm not ready to accept that I have a problem.

I know that makes me a coward

I'm finding it increasingly difficult to keep my mind from working overtime. I'm a born worrier and always put my daft ways down to that, but I know it's more than that atm and I'm finding it really difficult to keep myself from being completely irrational.

My latest fear is the snow and ice. I have to drive in it. I have no choice. It isn't even that bloody bad where I am, and yet for the past few days all I have thought about is how I'm going to cope when it starts to snow. I feel so anxious at the thought. I really don't want to leave the house.

I know I'm pathetic and I'm desperately trying to keep and handle on things. I can't talk to my dh about any of this as he'll just say I'm turning into my mum (she has suffered from depression and anxiety for the best part of 30yrs) and although I love my mum dearly, I really can't turn into her.

How do I rationalise my fears and stop myself from cracking up?

Please help

I feel worse now that I've posted.

I won't be returning to this thread ...

sorry

Please come back. There is nothing wrong with you. You are suffering from Anxiety Attacks, a very common and quite dibilitating illness. There is help out there. The most important thing is to recognise that you have a problem (just like a bad back or headache) and take steps to rectify it.

Contact your GP. Talk and talk and talk to people. The more you talk, the easier it will become to deal with. Can I ask if you have DCs and how old they are?

You are not turning into anyone. You are Sinking and as your name says you are feeling out of your depth, but you are you and you know you have a difficulty and want to address it. You are not a coward, you are very brave to address it and want help with it.

BTW, your DH is being more than a bit unhelpful here.

The biggest and most important thing you can and should do for yoursef is stop calling yourself all those names. You are none of the things you called yourself. At all.

You are just, like many, suffering with anxiety...

And don't be put of or worried by not having many responses - this is not the fastest board on MN except in a life or death emergency when lots of mnetters who don't regularly post here help out.

Please come back if you want...not wanting to accept how you feel doesn't make you a coward or pathetic.

You're still you...it's one of the things that saddens me that things like anxiety and depression and eating disorders are often results of coping resources/strategies being outweighed, but then some people think the person's changed or use derogatory terms.

Definitely try and see your GP (or if your practice has a GP you'd be more comfortable with or one with an interest in mental health, see them).

Take care of yourself.