Tbh I don't think I'll ever be ok. I'll just learn to live with my anger and fear, and try to respect the depth of the emotions I feel. I think I had the straw that broke the camels back, a few months back... smashing, screaming, physically holding eachother down... My son called the police cos I was a loon! I'd just found out that my son was gay, and mixing with paedos over the internet and in person :( I would've chopped the pervs Kn ackers off if I'd have got my hands on him. There is so much to this hideous story, but I must sleep now, my zopiclones working...if you wanna chat in peace about this stuff, we can always personal message if you like? I'll let you decide x