Hi. Just wanted to say this 'out loud', hope that's okay.
I've had depression for years, and social anxiety, much counselling, on mild antidepressants. Self esteem not brilliant. Have been trying to deal with fact that the man I was seeing in only really wanted sex and a bit of companionship, prob sounds childish but I liked him (over now) and it's made me feel pretty low, and like I've deluded myself. I also lost my sister three years ago in January, and this time of year is not good.
I don't know many people around here (receint in new city) and have wandered about today as I thought exercise and daylight might help, but still just wanting to be anonymous but also horribly lonely at the same time. Have joined pilates and cookery classes to meet people and go when I feel up to it. I think I look alright on the outside, but inside I feel like I'm going have to accept being be a recluse for years to come because I just can't seem to get right, even with the counselling and my self help stuff.
I always know there are people far worse off, and will keep going but it felt like such a long slog today, although now I've said all this it will probably feel a bit better tomorrow. If anyone has any advice I would really love to hear it. Thanks for reading though. M