Crisis of confidence

[littletinkers]

I don't seem to have any confidence in my ability to be a good mother. This is so severe I get panicky and v stressed in situations where my parenting can be observed. I have 2 yr old twins so challenging anyhow. Today I had kady round for lunch who used to help me with kids when I had bad pnd. She is amazing with kids. I just felt so small and inadequate next to her. I don't know how to feel more confident. Everyone tells me kids are fine and lovely etc though twin a can be a handful. I interpret even the slightest thing someone does as a negative judgement on my parenting then spiral into a negative sort of paralysis. Any tips anyone?

are you on any medication? maybe a trip to the drs may help?? could you not be fully over the pnd? xxx

On shed loads of medication. Probably more of a nervous breakdown than pnd alone. Have a history of anxiety and depression. Have had 2 serious episodes.

maybe if you talk to the gp they need to review your medication? do you have any practical support from anyone else? homestart?? you sound like a great mum, youre trying your best xx