Well like it says I'm new and I need somewhere to sound off. Had my second child a few weeks ago and already have a 5 year old. Suffered with PND with first child but took me years to do something about it. Have had a few down days since having my second child but not as bad as the first time round.
I've been feeling really self conscious and isolated. I have noone to talk to. Husband has called me a psycho, evil, and miserable which as you can imagine doesn't exactly boost my self esteem. What infuriates me is how he can sit there and tell me he has read up on post natal depression and then talk to me like that. How is that helping me? I can't bear to face people. I feel disgusting and ugly. I tell my husband this but he dismisses me. I told him tonight that I need him to stop ignoring me - I think I'm going to do something silly. Not because I want to hurt myself but because I need his attention. He's sound asleep and I'm sat here with pills in my pocket and a glass of water near by.
I just need some comfort, attention, understanding. He doesn't care. Why does he keep screaming at me? He tells me I shut down but there's no point in talking if someone is going to yell at you. I feel worthless.