Argh, where to start? I have 4 Dc, baby is 12 weeks. During pregnancy i became depressed and started on AD's. GP was lovely and supportive, signed me off work. Felt amazing after the birth, really on top of the world as i'd survived and a huge fear my mine during pregnancy was that i was going to die during my planned c section.
However a few weeks ago my mood started crashing down again, classic PND stuff, back to Gp, increased AD's, waiting for counselling, seeing Gp on regular basis, health visitor updated,so i kind of feel that i'm doing all i can to help myself and i'm really trying to cope and get better but it's killing my relationship with DP and it feels like huge cracks that we've papered over in the past are coming undone.
I honestly dont know if i'm being over sensitive because of PND, if i'm being a bitch, self adsorbed naval gazing?
I seem to be taking everything personally and seeing digs and snide remarks and i dont know whats really there and what i'm imagining??
I've also been physically ill for the last couple of weeks with an ongoing chest infection, i'm EBF and sleep deprived and knackered.
The incident this morning was i turned off the alarm clock which caused everyone to get up half an hour late. I dont remember turning it off but i must have done and just gone back to sleep. Much panic and rushing around getting Dc up and ready.
What pissed me off was DP saying "well cheers for that, thanks to you 'needing more sleep' i've got to rush around and be late for work!" I went a bit 
and asked him not to have a go, it wasn't on purpose. I said "i've been ill, i feel like shit, why are you trying to make me feel worse?"
He said he wasn't having a go but he was pissed off at being late and thought i'd been selfish going back to sleep! I ended up shouting and telling him i was sick of the digs and feel that he 'has a go' a lot about different things. I at the moment think he's a bit of a cunt and he thinks i'm a self absorbed drama queen.
There have been so many little incidents over the last few weeks and i really cant get a perspective.
He's stressed hugely at work, has a history of depression and anxiety issues himself going back years, we are all finding it hard to adjust to a new baby, i dont feel i get any support from him and am really wondering what's going to happen to our relationship.
I've gone on, i'm sorry, but i feel a bit better for typing it.