Is this PND or just life with 3 kids??

[mosschops30]

Now bearing in mind I dont really believe in depression, have never suffered from it, this has been a hard post to do and Ive thought about it for days.

I had a traumatic 3rd birth, was diagnosed with PTSD and have received treatment for it, although I dont feel that a lot of the issues have been resolved.

At the moment Im tired all the time, massively irritable, I feel like the word 'mum' is repated 1 million times a day . I just wish I could have a break, and me and dh are away this weekend and Im so looking forward to it.

I just dont think Ive felt this 'annoyed' with everything before, Im not sure if this is what its like having 3 kids, a job, clubs to take to and pick up, meals to cook, house to clean, etc etc etc or something else.

Would be glad of any advice, thanks

yes saga i think thats what Im trying to say (very badly
not that i dont believe in depression, but I dont believe a lot of people who say they have it, or that that many people do have true depression.

I suppose thats why I was asking 'am I just a bit knackered and pissed off or is it something else'?

Its amazing what you can do in 10 minutes, you've got ages yet!

Moss, I do get what you mean. There are some people who say they are depressed because they're a bit fedup. Its not always easy to get your point across online.

I think that you sound like you need a break but I would keep a check on it. Feeling how you do can be the very start. Its kind of a downward spiral. You might find that you feel better after your weekend break but if it continues for a period of time or if you start to feel worse I would have a chat with your GP.

I wish I'd got help a lot sooner. Mine started with me just feeling too tired to go out and wanting to sleep a lot.

I will see how I feel after our night away (sandwiched inbetween 2 night shifts ). I just would like to wake up naturally for once, to eat a meal without someone crying or needing the toilet or spilling a drink

Its all just pissing me off at the moment.
I dont feel that I dont want to go out though.

Its is hard isn't it. I have 3 DC too and even now I'm feeling better sometimes I want to just get in the car and drive off alone for some peace and quiet. My elder two are 11 and 9 and it does get easier, the older they get the less they want you. Still have a 13mo clung to my side every second of the day though. How old are your DC?

Mine are 14 (dd) 6 (ds1) and 11 months (ds2).

I think they all bring their own little challenges at the moment. I keep thinking I will look back on this time and wish Id cherished it, me being able to be at home 5 days a week, to pick ds1 up from school every day, its all you could ever want, but dear god sometimes Id just like to book into a travelodge on my own, get into my pjs, slip into bed and eat a family bag of crisps whilst watching tv with a cup of tea , how sad am I ?????

You sound so like me! I was working full time after having DD1 and DS, I longed to be a sahm and have another baby and a few years later I have my dream, except its such blooming hard work.

My mum always says to make the most of it because they'll all be grown and gone before I know it but I sometimes find myself dreaming about when they are older and I can have some time just for me.

I'd love to do the travellodge thing too. You're not sad! There is only so much giving one person can do before it all gets too much. Can you and DH maybe have a weekend away more often? Or maybe even the odd day where DH takes care of the DC and you go off for the day alone? It sounds like the break would really help you.

Travelodge - ohhh heaven! I'd go for that! Back in March DH bought me a day's glass blowing for my birthday and I booked myself into a lovely B&B on a farm near where the glass blowing course was and had the best evening ever all by myself, sitting on the bed, watching Eastenders and Embarrassing Bodies, eating junk and drinking what I call a 'lonely person bottle of wine' (those little ones you get in supermarkets). I was in heaven.

PS I have three DSs.

The more I think about it the more tempting the it is. There is a travellodge just down the road from me so I wouldn't be too far away if they really needed me home, hmmmm...

How was your weekend?

OP - I guess I can understand why you query whether everyone who says they're depressed actually is. I think had I not had bouts of serious depression I might be a bit of a sceptic myself. Anyhoo, re your post, I'm having the same dilemma - I'm finding DDs (2.10 and 8MO) really hard work, I feel the noise/cries/demands just start from the minute they get up and I'm sick to death of all the bloody housework, grovelling about on all fours picking up bits of food, washing hands, wiping bottoms, changing nappies, cooking meals that only get half eaten, lack of adult conversation. It's really hard to know how it's normal to feel in that situation and I can completely sympathise with your feeling guilty about not cherishing it etc. I hope your weekend away helped.

Have you any other symptoms i.e anxiety, heart palpatations, tearfulness, stomach nausea (churning) etc? Dont think that someone queries if they have depression lightly! You have obviously had a number of stressful events and are finding it hard to cope at times. If you seriously have PND you would know it! Its really crap, feels like all the joy has been sucked out of you. Just keep an eye on your moods and if you find they dip, then seek some help. Its important to try and treat it before it gets any worse. Imo

I had mild PND so would hate to imagine it any worse. I am much better now but still get days like you have described. Think that's just part of being a mum! Hope things get easier for you!

Ps to help deal with stress, I would invest in a Vitamin B complex. Its good for the nervous system and during times of stress. Hope this helps.