I thought I was feeling better

[ladymarian]

I have just come back from a night away with my sister who I don't see particularly often and she phoned me tonight to say she was worried about me - she thinks I seem quite low, anxious and not myself. I am on citalopram for PND and PTSD from DD's birth. My DD is nearly 3 so part of me does think I should be over it now but I wasn't diagnosed until she was 15 months old. I had counselling for a few months last summer too.

I have been on citalopram for nearly 18 months with a few ups and downs but lately I thought I was feeling much better so I was shocked by what my sister said. I was touched that she cared enough to phone me but I'm worried that I am getting depressed again without realising it.

Is this possible? Has anyone else experienced this?

PS thanks for reading, sorry its a bit long!

No experience sorry but wonder if it is possible that because you don't see your sister much it was more of an eyeopener for her than a case of you not doing well? Sorry probably not put that clearly.

It depends on how much your sister has actually engaged with your illness and how well she knows you. I have two friends who know me well enough that they can see I'm having a bad time if I'm pretending to myself that I'm ok (I used to close myself off from emotions and pretend life was fine and didn't hurt at all - I had PTSD following child abuse issues) - they would say things like 'don't pull the shutters down Madmouse, please'.

But if you are confident in yourself that you are getting there - dare and be brave enough to trust yourself!

Thanks for your messages - much appreciated.

My sister doesn't have children of her own but we are quite close.

Just one thought - if you think you are feeling better chances are you are aren't you? Otherwise you would know in your self wouldn't you.