Bulimia

[littledawley]

Not sure if this is the right place to post or really what I want to post but, here I go.

Does anyone else have an issue with this? I thought that it was something I did in my youth but it has crept up on me again. I'm not even sure that it bothers me apart from the fact that I have a daughter and DH would be upset.

I'm waffling and don't really know what I want to say. I am going to bed but will pop back tomorrow and see if anyone has wanted to share.

Am just bumping for you.
Have you looked at the EDA website?

Thanks ragged - was feeling that no-one had replied!! I'll try and look at it tonight.

Yes. Me too. How old is your daughter? Are you currently trying to diet? Overeating is a bit of a stress relief for me and vomiting the answer to make sure I don't put on tonnes of weight. It also happens when I try to diet.

I think you've hit the nail on the head- I'm trying to diet. Dd is 18 months old and I just haven't been shifting the weight- I would like to lose a stone. After my second child I had PND which was the last time the bulimia reared its head (before that it was between the ages of 16-22). Right now, life is stressful (just busy with three children and DH working away) but I'm very happy.

How many dc do you have? How long have you been bulimic? (I find it hard to use that phrase) does it bother you?

I'm going to bed now but will check in tomorrow. Thanks for sharing

Technically I used to be bulimic, in that I would binge eat and then try to work off the calories with exercise (I was an utter failure at the barfing and starving techniques, too painful!!) :).

I'm very sorry if this comes across as patronising. It sounds like you still have a lot of unresolved body image issues, linked to self-esteem? Boredom and stress are issues, too, any sort of situation where you feel like you're not really on top of what you want your life to be about. Any sort of counselling could help with that. There are a lot of self-help groups if talking it thru with peers would help, too. Google for all that.

I am/was EDNOS. Am pg now so absolutely no restriction or purging.

Restricting is a BIG binge/purge trigger so if you're trying to diet then be really careful you're getting enough calories and nutrients and not feeling as though you're depriving yourself of anything.

Have you ever seen anyone about it?

Try here
and here for some info

PS what ragged says about boredom, stress etc rings true with me especially.

I can't write much as going out soon, but it sounds similar to me....and I'm sure many others too.

Oddly enough, once I got over all my emotional baggage behind this habit (two years of counselling) I became very good at maintaining my weight and eating a varied and excellent diet. Although from time to time high stress and dieting trigger it. Obviously, pregnancy was not an easy one to ride out with a history of weight problems.

I have just lost one stone (I have three more to loose). I tried earlier in the year but bulimia struck, so took the summer off to relax, think a lot about it, talk online about it and even mention it to my dp (he didn't take it at all seriously - I think he thought I was making excuses). Anyway, I decided to wait until there was less stress in my life (September seemed to be best). I eat 3eggs+toast+half grapefruit for breakfast, big healthy lunch, and then just eat a smaller supper with no carbs. Snacks are tonnes of fruit (which I love). It's worked quite well, twice I've binged but in seven weeks I think that is quite good for me.

I just really want to loose the weight for life and stay the same weight for the rest of my life, because I know I'm actually very good at that. The battle will be getting there. But it's going well, and I don't care if it takes a year - I just want to go very slowly and not become an emotional mess.

It's incredibly hard. I was my ideal weight 14 years ago for a few months, and before that was 20 years ago, so the vast majority of my life I've spent hating my weight, and I think I've reached the point where I am really bored with it, and just want to be free of it all. I think I'm almost there.

Thanks all - I have lost one stone since the beginning of September which I know isn't too healthy but I can't help feeling pleased!
I am going away for a week tomorrow with DH and DC - in laws will be there so it will be stressful. I am already worrying about how to purge without anyone noticing. Think I might take my running gear to help deal with the stress.
On a more positive note, I had quite a fatty lunch today (friend served it up) which I managed to keep down. Dinner out now though and I can't promise the same .
ragged - your post was not patronising at all, I will take time when I can to read through your links. I will try to stay on this thread when we are away to keep me thinking.
Is it really wrong that I think that I would just like to get to my goal weight and then deal with these issues??

NurseSunshine - I had to google EDNOS. I think that sounds like me. Your first link has a page entitled 'if you really knew me' that made me weep a little.

gladis - when you say that your ideal weight was 14 years ago, do you think that you could be that again? Do you want to be? When I was 18 I weighed 8 1/2 stone, had a 24" waist and big boobs and hips. I thought that I was massive then (mum and sister are both size 6, I was a 10-12 then) and now I look back and think that I would give anything to have that body now. I sometimes wonder if I will look back on today and think that I looked great.

The "If you really knew me " link ticks so many of my boxes... :(