washing ups still sitting there pmsl :)
babyd,hey!i was assessed for bi polar this week so am waiting to hear,my brother has just been diagnosed with it after being sectioned and mood stabilisers are making such a difference.
school runs have took getting used to.felt sick,paranoid how i look,scared of bein late so tried to set off too early and avoided bein near the other mums who looked so together compared to me who always looked weepy.
getting ready in the morning can be an anxious time,the thought of my partner goin to work if there is too much to do here,like trying to persuade to get my kids washed and dressed and not be late sends my breathing into overdrive.the last few days have been my best for a long time,i must be giving off an aura lol as other people are actually acknowledging me now.
my partner was working shifts and weekends and i hardly saw him for ages.he has started a normal monday to friday job this week so weekends i wont be sitting in front of eastenders omnibus feeling suicidal hopefully and maybe doing something productive with my family touch wood.
always avoided counselling but now i cant wait,they get paid to listen to people tell them completely insane thoughts,ie my common one is what happens if i let the pram go and im on a hill?????cuckoo i know,or how are my kids gonna cope when i die?morbid.
have been also pulling my hair out when really anxious or depressed and i can stop for months and then start again.anyone else do that?i might as well be honest,i know im a raving nutter by this point.