advice please.....

[MissTired]

i am really depressed, been on antidepressants since mid july but no help, im back at drs tomorrow. ive been feeling a little suicidal, i know i wont do anything because of my son, though i have in the past, before having my ds, i really want to tell dr that im feeling a little like that again but could thi have a major impact on things ie could they put my ds in care or something!? im a good mum and i know there are no other issues but i just worry that due to me having attempted suicide at 17, im 30 now, i worry that they will take it far too seriously, i have the thoughts now but im sure that i wont carr them through, does that make sense?

I can see why you dont want to tell dr.However I would assume that taking your son away from you is not the answer, I would have thought they would get you help and support I think a lot of people have these thoughts. You wonder what it would be like for other people when you are not around. It doesnt mean the same as doing it. And you love your son and wouldnt want him to be without his mummy.
Why not try a help line Samaritans or something and you can ask them in confidence. I too am on anti deps and feel like they are not working. My DD is a shit sleeper day and night. I have not had a full nights sleep since last June when I was pregnant.

Hang in there and get some anonymous advice from someone in the know.

Lots of people have these thoughts- it is VERY unlikely they will take your kids from you. I have been much worse and there was never any question of it.

It is good to ask for help, and to accept help. It is when people refuse treatment that alarm bells start to ring.

thanks for the replies, ive told the drs everything and they doubled my dose, thanks so much xx

Good to hear. Hope you start feeling better soon. :)