I'm a mess tonight...

[livinginadw]

It's been a week since I went back on prozac (having been off it for 3 years) and this week has been hell, the nausea is ridiulous, everything tastes odd, i dont want to eat I feel like absolute shit and am not sleeping. I wake up in a panic that I cant explain, and it takes hours to calm down. I am absolutely exhausted - went to bed an hour ago and am awake and hyperventilating now. I know they will start doing the job in a week or two but right now I can honestly say I feel worse than I ever have, and am struggling to see why I should keep taking them. I could quite happily take a blade to myself right now and am hammering away at the keyboard in an attempt to distract myself. I am so bloody tired and my brain wont stop over thinking EVERY LITTLE THING, I seem to be replaying my day in my head seeing things I 'messed up'

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Hiya,It takes about 2 weeks for prozac to kick in so hang in there.Dont try to be normal at the moment. If you cant sleep get up and read or watch tv or come on here and read old funny classics.Remember how you feel now is not a normal state of mind so you are ill and will get better so dont act on rash thoughts and feelings. I am feeling ill tonight so will prob go to bed soon but i will come on again in the morning so please get thru the night and chat to me tomorrow.Loads of people have been where you are now and are all ok today it will pass eventually i promise.

Hello 'livinginadw'---just wanted to say that I am thinking of you and feel desperately sorry that you feel so bad.I have had bad times in my life but the main thing to remember is to keep fighting it all, accept all the help that is offered to you and take one step at a time. Do you have a CPN or gp that you could talk to tomorrow.?
It will pass but doesn't feel like that at the moment.
Keep posting how you feel and think of all the people out here praying for you and sending their good thoughts to you.xxxxx

Im just so freaking tired, and my brain just won't turn off, I'm panicing over things that I KNOW are nothing to panic over, I know I'm over reacting but I cant seem to help it. I am so freaking paranoid, everyone is talking about me, or watching me and judging what im doing...

I want to sleep.

Hi.How are you today.Are you on your own?Can you get some company today.

Im feeling a bit better today, went to work this morning, and actually had a good day - which is pretty unusual for my job at the moment! I'm worse in the evenings and usually chat to a friend online, feel like Im really getting her down though so last night basically told her I was good when I was far from it.

I understand about that damned nausea... i have been on and off the prozac since 2006. Its not good. I feel totally numb but too terrified to come off it and face the harsh effects of what life will hitme with!!

You are not alone.. we need to remember, as harsh as these side effects may be there is a more positive (i keep telling myself) outcome and that is being sane(ish) - personally... i hope you are going to be ok xx

send me a message if you want to chat you are not alone xx

the nausea shouldnt last. Mention it to Dr. Also with prozac and other ssri's you need to take them for at least 6 months after you start to feel better.I know its been said before but i firmly believe exercise is a great cure too and i am not a fitness freak at all but it really does help.

I'm a mess again tonight, I just seem to have the time to think too much once the evening hits. I tried to stay busy, I've done a load of shitty chores to keep me busy and went for a run. But feel awful, I hate that I feel worse than before I started, and I felt bad for a long time before biting the bullet and asking to go back on the a/d's.

I'm questionning and second guessing ever single thing I do, and am so anxious, I dont ever remember feeling this bad. Though to be fair, I was in such a mess the first time I went on a/d's its a complete blank....

google anxiety it helps if you understand waht is happening to your body. Its adrenaline which causes it so need to stop producing it (relaxation) or use it (burn it off) are you getting the help you need. Some anti ds can cause anxiety in people. Do you know what is making you so anxious, in my cases it was having cancer (16yrs ago) and the second time a bloke who i was mad about but messed me about. I used to wake up about 4am in a terrible state which is apparently common cos resistance is lower. I gave up trying to sleep and just got up. It did pass eventually the 2nd time without meds just excercise and good friends...oh yeah and marlboro lights and wine too.Thing about all the people who have been where you are and are ok now.Get some more advice, take control of your own health plan lots of lovely things for each day. I wish i could help more.

Poor you, this bit is really horrible. It does pass. Remind yourself that the awful feelings can do you no actual harm. You have been through this once before and you can do it again.

I know what made me anxious in the past, but I thought I was over all that stuff.

I've cut tonight, and hate myslef even more for it.

well dont. Its just your way of coping. Do you have managment techniques for it ie safer ways of expressing yourself.Do you have a cpn or a psych? Gps are not always the best to deal with mental health get a referral asap.Are there any other threads on here with people who have been the same and felt better or do a search and read some old posts it does help.

I have alot of coping techniques, they're just not working any more and I was under the CMHT last time, but they discharged me back to my GP 3 years ago, I think I need to ask to go back, I just feel like I'm falling back into something I worked so hard to pull myself out of

Asking to go back would be a sensible step, good idea.

You're in an adjustment phase. Try and take it one hour at a time.

I really don't know what to do anymore. I'm feeling worse everyday, and simply functioning is becoming too difficult.

I'm cutting again, one night is a one off, two in a row, not so much.

I hate this, I feel like I have no control anymore, I just looking for some kind of release, and am increasingly feeling that ending it all is the only route to realise.