I'm not sure but i think i may possibly be letting my temper get the better of me...
i've written about this elsewhere - i have two DDs - one is 2.7 and DD2 is 6mo. Like most I've found the transition from one to two children pretty tough, but unlike others I don't cry and i don't get depressed or worried. I do, however, get angry...and usually my flash point is too quick for me to control.
I have to stress I do NOT take this out on the children. I think actually i take it out on myself. My most recent example (about ten minutes ago) was after an hour of trying to get DD2 to eat some of the dinner I made her (and failing) whilst spoon feeding DD1 and realising that the kitchen I lovingly cleaned this morning is now a complete tip (let alone the rest of the house). The final straw was as I tried to put the chocolate cake that DD1 and I made together just fell apart as I put it in the tin. So I shouted very loudly and repeatedly hit myself over the head with the tin and threw it across the room. [blush. the tin is now in the bin (because it broke).
It's as if nothing goes right. Even once I'd pulled myself together, I completely covered myself with water because the running tap hit the cake tin and showered me in it!! Life is one long slapstick, and I know it probably sounds funny and like I'm completely over reacting but I am FED up of it...at my worst I do think I would do some serious harm to myself, it would be better to physically hurt than actually feel so angry?? Does that make sense?
Have to stop because DH will be home any time soon but I just wondered if anyone understood any of this and had any tips for what to do.
I must stress the girls are fine and I would never ever harm them, they are lush. I just need to curb my temper when silly things go wrong....