Stupid bloody depression. Its not FAIR. Why do I get to have it when people can do horrible things and don't get this punishment?

[Flamesparrow]

Life has been really good atm.

I missed a few ADs last week just through forgetting. Today - it hit me.

I was perfectly happy until lunchtime. Now I am twitchy and things I was fine with before I am now convinced is actually bad stuff and people lying to me.

I have been on top of the house, and now I am hiding from dishes and mess.

Its not f*cking fair. I don't think I am particularly evil. What did I do that means that if I don't keep on top of medication I go like this?! Its not as if it is psychosomatic as I didn't realise I'd missed them until I went like this and then went to check.

Don't beat yourself up about this Flame. The drugs create a chemical balance in your brain and forgetting to take a few has just upset the chemical balance. When the time is right and you come off the ADs, it will be slowly and in a controlled way so that your brain can readjust to the chemical levels.

Be kind to yourself this evening.

I want someone to hold me :(

(sorry - you being nice made me crumble)

Do you want me to be horrid instead?

Seriously, have a long distance {{{}}} from me. Not much good compared with the real thing, I know, but I hate to think of you alone.

Is there a child with you who can give you a cuddle? Again, it is not what you really want, but it more precious than anything else.

Have you taken your AD dose today? You know that once you take the tablets again, you will feel more on top your situation, don't you?

Yup, I've been taking them this week - my sister has started phoning me every day to tell me to take them .

Just had a story and a big hug with DS.

Part of my paranoia is over the guy I have met, so I can't even bring myself to text him for a chat as I have convinced myself I am stalking him.

I swallowed the fear and text him in the end. Felt much better afterwards. Still twitchy today though.