Please help me not to lose it today, thank you

[Adairbutdifferent]

Right, both kids slept through - miracle. unfortunately, this meant ds was awake at 5.10am - coughing too. So we got up at 5.30 (dozed til then). managed to doze 6.10-6.30am while dh got ready for work but unfortunately, dh was in Bad mood so just heard him moaning at kids which made me feel anxious and guilty.

Am still anxious and feel like crying and so tired - am pregnant too which doesn't help, kids sitting ON me watching cbeebies. Want to cry and slleeep and i know dh has gone to work all in a mood cos i was pissed off with him and irritable with kids and i feel all confused and circular that I can't get out of it.

ANYWAY, what do i do? i know this sounds stupid and pathetic but i cant even think right now. how do i function til 11.45 when I take dd to nursery. Can feel i am irritable and ready to SHOUT and scream and throw things, (part of me writing this is to shake me into NOT doing this). Help, please.

I try and break the morning into bite sized jobs then do them slowly one by one. If you need to sit down and rest in between then do that.
Will you get to rest after DD is at nursery? If so then just see that as your goal this morning and remember you will get there.

Thank you.
you are right, bite-sized chunks. One thing at a time. let's do breakfast now/

Re nursery, not sure how much rest I will get but will only have one of them at least ! And tbh it's the fact that I know it's getting out but i don;t have to think about it.

All will be fine. Thank you for reading and replying.

I feel a bit the same this morning, I had a bit of a restless night then was awake at 5.30. I am taking it slowly this morning, one thing at a time. Plenty of cartoons on to keep DS happy then off to nursery at 12.30. I let DS play in the shower/bath for as long as poss on mornings like this, our bathroom is down stairs which helps.

How are you now? Did you get through breakfast?

I did, and I do feel a bit more normal, thanks! Followed Topsi's advice and wrote a few things on our whiteboard (breakfast, dressed, washing, guinea pigs...) andjust got back from taking dd to nursery. ds fell asleep in buggy too - hurrah, so bought a mag and some crisps (and some cherry coke, a rare treat) and will chill for a bit... I think writing that OP really reminded me to get a grip. I was in danger of losing perspective and feeling like a terrible failure and heading into a whirl of destruction...

topsi, how are you? Hope you managed to follow your own advice and take it easy , and bite-sized!

Enjoy the cherry coke. Honestly, you sound anything but a failure.

What are you doing next?

Am about to turn computer off and re-engage...
ds woke from nap in delicious cuddle mode and now has just finished his lunch (made in the shape of a face with his help - gosh, i can fake being a super-mum ).

Got half hour to potter with ds and then we'll go and get dd... and watch a film (it is raining, after all).

Am probably ready to apologise to dh for being a grumpy cow too. Have sent a half-apologetic text already

Yes I am OK thanks just relaxing for a few minutes before I start work at 4.
Yes get the TV on it won't do any harm. Lunch in the shape of a face - that makes you a great mum, I have never done anyhting like that.
Have a relaxing afternoon.

well made it through the day am off to bed soon. How are you Adair

Sleep well - let's hope the kids do too .