Can PND return?

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I have two wonderful sons (age 3.9 years and 22 months) and (dear) husband and was diagnosed with PND when ds2 was 8 months old. I am a SAHM.

I had all the usual symptons and was in denial there was a problem until an issue at home brought things to a head and I went to my GP. I was prescribed Lustral which I took until June/July this year, when I felt OK to come off the medication. Unfortunately the PND support group, which I was due to go to never got off the ground and I've not had any "help" apart from the AD's.

Since then, I've plodded along having good and not so good days.

For the bank holiday we went away to a hotel - dh was working (on his hobby) and therefore I had the kids to look after. We've not been to a hotel with them before (in fact it's the first time really we've been away as a family to somewhere else apart from relatives).

I felt very tearful, very stressed out and even panicky. I felt the old symptoms were back and just wanted to come home - even cried in public which is something I hate doing. Really snappy with the kids - shouted big time at both and felt awful for doing so. Tried to explain to ds1 that mummy wasn't feeling too good and he asked if that was why I was crying. They notice so much when something is wrong.

Now we are back, husband goes back to work today and I'm sorting out the fallout from a long weekend away (thank goodness it's not raining).

Questions:

Can PND return?
Should I go back to my GP?
Should I start taking my AD's again (I have some left)?

Sorry for rambling. I'd welcome any feedback.
Thank you.

Hi - sorry you had such a bad time.

I think it can come back - particularly if you have only taken ADs and not actually spoken to someone about things. Certainly that's what happened my sister. Things got really bad with her and doc was next to useless - just kept changing her dosage.

She finally was strong enough to come off her meds herself and then went to a dif GP who is also a homeopath - she seems much better now.

I would suggest you go back to your GP initially - you may need the ADs again but you should try talking to a counsellor or something also.

Good luck

Mumbojumbo, I wouldn't read too much into the fact that you found the w/e away hugely stressful. If I think I'm about to melt down again, a trip away is usually the trigger for my anxiety. Change in routine, kids overexcited, plus the pressure of expectations -- you're out of your comfort zone.
However if you think that since coming off the ADs your anxiety levels have crept up again, and if you're feeling anxiety/bleakness on a more constant level, I would go back to the GP. I wouldn't restart the ADs without the GP's sayso.