Feeling very down

[Gils]

Last few weeks have been very stressful and this week I have been struggling to sleep and generally cope.

I have 2 gorgeous DD's, 3 and 12 weeks. DD1 is very high maintenance. DH works away 4 days away 4 days home. When he is away I feel like I am getting more and more depressed. Have little motivation, teary and find the nights alone very long and lonely.

I have found myself snapping a lot more at DD1 and getting angry with DD2 for just being a typical baby. Feeling like such a terrible mum this week and just don't feel as happy as normal.

Other things going on, problems with in laws, lack of money etc. Dad also had a 2nd stroke in 2 months last week, has luckily recovered well.

Trying to keep going as usual and see if I can work through it because scared of reactions.

Have a family function tomorrow. Will be first night away from girls since DD2 born but I have no interest in going.

Don't want to rush into diagnosing myself with depression. I have had 4 days period free in last 3-4 weeks. Had 3 seperate periods so not sure if its just my cycle adding to it.

Sorry for rambling. Is there anything diet wise to give yourself a pick me up?

Do you have friends or relatives who can help you? It must be difficult being on your own four days a week with two young children.

It is very hard looking after two little ones, especially with a young baby, and there is so much pressure from society to be coping 100% of the time. Be kind to yourself. You DD1 might be struggling to adjust to the huge change in her life too - hence the 'high maintenance'. And with your DH working away - that's very hard for you.

I take vitamin B tablets (Magnesium OK from Boots) and omega 3 6, 9 fish oil tablets and they really help. The vit B helps with sleep and relaxation and omega oils help perk me up and help with concentration and energy.

Also your hormones are all over the place at the moment. I reckon mine are just about settling down and my DS3 is nine months old tomorrow. Be kind to yourself :)

Thank you. I will def take advise on board re vitamins. Of to boots I go!
I have spoken to dh about how I am feeling and he seems to understand. He wants to make sure when he is home I try and get some me time! Even if it's just walk round block so not attached perm to house.
Supposed to be getting the injection contraception on tues but decided to delay as not sure how any extra hormones might affect me.
Next step is difficult conversation with mil re lack of help. She looks after my dn every week without fail however she has never been very reliable where my dd1 is concerned. Long story.
Thanks for your responses, just getting it of my chest helped me to speak to dh