Hi
I don't post much but would appreciate some advice if someone could help me, might involve telling me to get my bum in gear.
Basically I lost my sister a while back and am still on antidepressants, have had lots of counselling etc; not expecting it to feel 'sorted' but have hit a bad patch. I've always been socially phobic to varying degrees, and it feels like that might be back quite a lot. Things feel pretty dark and am wondering whether to increase the ADs and go back to more frequent counselling. I also have an health condition which is making me tired a lot of the time.
My friend is getting married in three weeks time. It's a long drive (Kent to Bristol) and though I know other people I can stay with, I have no-one to go to the wedding itself with. I won't know anyone there. It is exactly the situation that freaks me out and wears me down (and I'm not young either, should be used to it!). But it's my friends day, and though I only see/speak to her a couple of times a year, she's had a very rough time herself and I don't want her to feel I don't care about her and her happiness, because I do. I AM lookign forward to her being happy.
This sounds very me me me, I know. I don't know whether I should just get on with it, go, and make it as good a day for her as I can; or not go, explain why and see her soon afterwards instead. (At the moment I think I'll be going). Any advice would be very welcome. Thanksx