I am out of control at the moment.
I eat constantly (I think I?ve put on the stone and a half that I lost throughout the 6 weeks of the school holidays)
I am finding it very hard to get to sleep
I have been spending money like there is no tomorrow
My house is cleaner and tidier than it has been for a long time.
I have over the past few weeks completely gutted the garage ? it needed done and I started when the girls were in bed, when DH was in Africa but I found myself doing it at 11.30 at night and being unbearably proud of how much I was throwing out.
I am completely out of control ? esp as far as eating and spending go.
I?m on 20mg citalopram ? I was put on them about 4 months ago because I was getting very anxious ? DH wasn?t doing well (he has MH issues that I tend to dread coming back, so at the slightest sign I was getting very upset), he was saying some things to me and arguing with me constantly and I was getting really stressed and anxious.
I?m going for surgery on Monday
I?ve never noticed ?highs? and ?lows? in myself before but to me this seems like a sustained ?high? rather than just an energy burst or something ? esp as its been all over the summer holidays and I actually dread them.
Does that sound like a ?high? to you expert girls?
(I have 3 dds - 6year old, an almost 4 year old and a 6 month old for some background. I had pnd after DD1 was bormn and PTSD after DD2 was born. I also in the past have had 2 main times in my life when I was diagnosed with depression, when I was 17 and in college for the first time away from home, and when I was 26 and I had just left an abusive relationship where I was beaten up)