Not coping at the moment

[moid]

Starting to sink a little, gentle depression has been with me for most of my life but not for a few years but I do feel that I am starting to fall apart again.

Not sleeping, stress at work, DH got made redundant last September and he has set up his own business - we are still waiting for that big contract, money is running out but DH doesn't think about it or seem to get concerned, boys (7,9) are at each others throats all the time, feel very isolated (no great friendships, hobbies, family a bit emotionally distant), in our marriage I have always supported DH and he isn't good at supporting me.

Little summary. I am ok but it is good to write it all down - I feel lighter just for sharing it.

Hi - well done for writing it down. I recognise some of what you say, particularly me being much better at supporting dh than vice versa. We've both had MH problems at the same time and where I have always found space to support him even while quite poorly he' only ever given me what was left after he'd taken what he needed for himself. But then he admits depression makes you selfish. And it is getting better.

It sounds like you need to talk things through in real life, in more detail. Try a friend, you may be surprised, they probably have no idea that you are struggling. Talking to a friend will make you feel less isolated and takes some pressure off you. At least that's my experience.

hi moid....i know exactly how you feel,i have been there and am still there and slipping backwards myself. i too feel quite lonely.