bdp/depression/bulimia

[angel2001]

i am not sure what to do. i have been diagnosed with bdp and depression for 8 years now and am getting help for it. the thing i am wandering is whether i have sign of bulimia . i thought it was just me and have read up on it and now not sure. i will have binge days then feel fat then not eat for days. if i lose weight then i try and keep it off as happy i have lost it. i will eat in front of family and friends but if i can get away with it i will. i look and feel fat but keep telling myself i have put on weight with my med so i see myself fat. my fiends say i have ;ost loads of weight which according to the scales i have lost a stone and a half but i cant see it. not sure if it the depression and the way i feel, bdp can make me feel worthless and nothing makes me happy. but i am nt sure dont want to go to my physc and look a fool. any ideas. i feel fat and ugly and really hate myself

Dear Angel

It is difficult to say whether you have bulimia or whether you are depressed. There can be quite a lot of overlap.

It definitely sounds as though you are not in a good place at the moment, so you should go and see your psych.

They will take your concerns seriously; you definitely will not look a fool.

It is awful when you are in a down phase, but after 8 years I am sure you know that this will not last forever. You won't feel like this always, so go and see your doctor, get some help and good luck.

Your eating certainly sounds disordered but what you describe (the binge/starve cycle) is also symptomatic of Anorexia as well as EDNOS (eating disorder none specific). Depression can also cause "blips" in eating.

Either way, it is making you feel uncomfortable so i would go and see your GP or psych.