I have 2 DDs and a wonderful DH & life should be great, but my reality is that every morning I get up & the tension starts in my body, fluttery stomach, tense/ painful shoulders & over the last few weeks sometimes a headache. I have lots of things planned for my day & seem to spend the day watching the clock thinking I need to this & that, but sometimes just putting things off, and feel completely overwhemled by housework etc.
I am worried that this may be the start of PND.But on the other hand maybe this is just what it's like having a 6 month old & a 2 year old. I don't have any family in this country & don't get much of a break from anything really. You would never guess by me that this is how I am feeling. Strangely though when my husband or friends are around me I don't feel half as stressed. I suffered from a bout of depression in my early 20s am now in my mid 30s. Am thinking about taking St John's Wort, as don't want to go down the AD route. I haven't gone to the doctor as I'm hoping the way I'm feeling will lift.
I suppose today, as I sit here with a tense sore body & feeling of being completley incapable of relaxing, I just needed to tell someone in the hope that someone will give me some advice.