I went back to how I 'was'.
I have had a stomach bug for about 5 days so haven't been able to take my tablets.
My husband did something a bit thoughtless, but didn't mean t hurt me (but he did) and I went off on one like I used to.
Being verbally disgusting and I even punched him in the arm
I've apologised and he has accepted but its really upset me to see how fast I can return to that horrible person who I thought I had left behind.
The last few months I've looked back on how I used to be and cried with shame, yet from just missing a few pills I am back there again, and the worst, very worst part of it is that I couldn't stop myself, and the smiles I was giving him, the smirks, were real.
But after, now, I feel so ashamed. But I turn into this monster
Fuck, theres something so wrong with me