well I've started St Johns Worth this morning

[willsurvivethis]

and if that doesn't help it will be down to the docs in a few weeks for pills. I've fought so hard and come this far without medication but I found the agitation and stress and adrenalin of the ptsd easier to cope with than this bleakness and exhaustion.

But a friend wouldn't let me go to bed without a promise that I wouldn't do anything stupid and dh says I look exhausted and I am. So time to get real.

I feel defeated.

Just realise that sounds as if it is a sign of weakness or whatever to need meds - it isn't! I hope you know me all well enough by now to know that. Hard to understand how I feel. Just not coping very well.

oh no willsurvive

As you say though, it's not defeat to take the pills. Tell yourself it's not forever, just to get you through this rough patch.

Hopefully the SJW will help though and you won't need to.

Some ADs you need to have a break of a few weeks after stopping SJW as they can interact - just to bear in mind..

sorry you are feeling so bleak. Hugs

Oh WillSurvive SJW might be just the thing to help you - something quite gentle. I hope it does help you. I have some on the shelf sitting unopened and I've dithered about trying them for months now.

Big hug from me too