not depressed as such..more detatched and uninerested in life.

[evesmama]

ive been on lustral now for a good few months and have been taking 100mg for about 4 months..but for the last 3 i have felt abslutely drained through the day..i spoke to my gp who said they were esigned to chill me out..but TBH..im falling asleep and have no enthusiasm or get up and go unless really have to.
im also very intollerant of dd over the last couple of months and feel very wound up and ready to blow all the time.

again spoke to gp who has reduced dose back to 50mg and sadi the antidepressant should still work, but i shouldnt feel as tired????

i really really dont feel right..i hate myself for snapping at dd and feel very weird..this is about the fourth ad ive been given and im still not 'well' or feeling myself and dd is 2 yrs 3 months.
i dont know what else i can do?

I am hopeless with these kind of threads, do you anyone who could look after dd for a little while just so you can get some rest and feel you are not so tired.

no, we've just moved away! and didnt have much help in old area anyway..but then i feel worse if i do have a sleep..im constantly thinking of all the jobs i need to do then not doing any f them and beating myself up again..i need a 'get off my a*e tablet

had a god awful day toda..feel so angry and moody and have no patience with anyone..dd coming down with something so has been a handful all day and cant go to doc till i have my medical for life insurance on friday otherwise there might be more complications..just started to feel really desparate now..dont feel right at all and i hate being like this

I can't offer advice about AD's (I'm still deciding whether to take my first lot or not) but I can sympathise with the day you've had. DH and I had a huge row today, partly because he can't cope with me being depressed.

I hope someone more knowledgeable than me comes along soon to help with your question.

evesmama, you sound like me in every way.
Do you mind if i chat with you, im sorry i have no advice but i feel that you may understand me as i understand what you are saying?
(in a none stalker type way....sounds like im some king of barmy loony IYSWIM)

I honestly started feeling better and having more energy when I started taking omega-3 supplements in addition to my AD's.

take it day by day until Friday. sounds like something isn't quite right = either the AD pills or possible iron or thyroid problems. How long ago did you reduce back to 50 mg - wonder if the feeling weird might be withdrawal symptoms from the decrease?

thanks everyone..aunty and cousin turned up so have been away from comp.

havent started taking 50mg yet as he told me to finish of present pack first..TBH have only been taking one every two days for about two weeks as i felt so crappy and tired.

of course i dont mind chatting maybean, just hope i dont make you feel worse!

just dont know what it is, surely after all this time i should be on the road to recovery??but i have felt all day like i could burst out crying and i still feel detatched from dd??and that hurts me

oh yes and for the last maybe two weeks have been aching all over all day..feel like an old wooman all my joints and everything aching and sore???but that may be weight however, i havent put any extra on recently??

evesmama, it was the "not feeling depressed as such" that struck a chord with me as this is how ive been over the past few months or so.
Little things getting to me and i am focussing on negatives all of the time.
I dont feel bad enough for AD's (ive never taken them in my life) but just feel like i need a "pick me up".
Also it was the feeling wound up and ready to blow which is how i am,with ds hitting the terrible teos i feel on the edge of smacking him allot of the time.
I feel flat, with no enthusiasm, no confidence, no interest and like i am worthless. It has been this bad for about 3 months now.
I take evening primrose, starflower oil and folic acid, but i dont take them every day as i cant be bothered quite honestly.
In life there are a few things that get me down but at the same time there are a million things that i should be grateful for, this is why i cant understand why i feel like i do.
Do you understand what i am on about or am i talking crap?

no, you are talking about me actually!
i have a million things to do and i make more work for myself by constantly thinking of ways of getting out of doing them??ill quite happily sit here, when all sorts need doing, which i should do whilst dd asleep..but hey..guess what!
me and dp are getting on better, dp and dd are getting on better, but its me and dd thats the problem, she's also 2 yrs and a bit and im finding it really really hard work, i think i expect too much from her and take out my frustration and worries out on her..it was the same last time we moved though, but then i had reason to be feeling this way..now..i dont?..ijust do?..that probably doesnt make sense.
i just feel there is something missing, something stopping me from being 'me' and that makes me feel worse!

even positive life changes can be stressful - house move/marriage/promotion so can exacerbate anxiety/depression

just so hard to explain or put my finger on..ill be really short with dd like when im trying to get her changed..she runs off to watch Dora and im like 'come here NOW'..like shes done something terrible

i couldnt be happier living here its a lovely place compared to our last and me and dp are getting along better, but the person who needs me most seems to make me wound up????i never thought it would be this hard

I've never heard of Lustral: is it an SSRI anti-d like Prozac? It sounds a bit like one we have in Australia called Lovan, which is SSRI but treats anxiety more than depression: you take it at night and it makes you drowsy initially. If Lustral is drowsy-making, be sure you are taking it before bed, rather than in the morning. GPs get it wrong sometimes. I had a GP once tell me to take an anti-d at night, and I knew that this particular drug was a stimulant and not suitable to take before bed.
Was your depression very severe? Maybe you need higher doses of (yet another) anti-d. Sometimes it takes a while to find the one that works, and some of them can actually have a negative effect if they are not suitable for the individual.
Also, have you considered that there might be a physical problem contributing to the tiredness, like low iron? Have you had a bad flu recently? Post-viral fatigue is very common.
I found that Prozac, while repressing the worst of my feelings, made me feel unemotional and strange to myself, so I weaned myself off it and tried something else. Oddly, the one that worked for me eventually was an old-fashioned one (Deptran). But many of the older ones are not suitable if you are pregnant or breastfeeding (I was neither at the time I was on this particular drug: when I unexpectedly got pregnant I had to stop taking it).
Hang in there! You are probably very tired (what mother isn't) and should not be 'down' on youself for feeling disengaged sometimes.

Oh evesmama it sounds so hard

I have no experience of depression but one thing I do know is that western medicine is very much a trial and error kind of thing .. any number of drugs can be prescribed for any number of conditions and it is trial and error whether they are right for you

I suppose one of the problems with depression / side effects is that its difficult to stand up to yourself

I personally think that you need to go back to GP tell him/her categorically it isn't working as the side effects are impossible to live with and ask for a different AD .. maybe take someone in with you who can be your advocate?

hi, sorry had a terrible day yesterday, dont really want to go into it

today still bad, very edgy, uneasy and tense..have to go into town tomorrow..not looking forward to that!, then mam wants to come back here with us..not looking forward to that...and having very disturbing dreams about visiting the doctor and him cutting my inside elsow open to check whats wrong with me??????
be glad when mdical done on friday, then i can go to doc monday and try to get sorted!

soory if this is uninteresting girls..bit of a dear diary moment more than anything..am counting the days until my assurance comes back so i can go to see gp.
a getting more than a little concerned about my health and well being as i am feeling so old and achy and still have no energy or enthusiasm and am now a bit worried about my breast.

am actually thinking of changing gp to one close to me now as i dont think my present one is helping regardless of how nice he is..
just hope its soon

evesmama it sounds like your problem might be more physical than mental....do you think you might have a bad virus such as glandular fever, or even Chronic Fatigue Syndrome?
That's a depressing suggestion, I know, but on the other hand once you have a diagnosis you will be able to take action.
Emphasise your physical symptoms to your doctor and MAKE him or her check it out properly. It is true that depression is sometimes accompanied by physical weariness and a 'run down' feeling, but they should not be assuming it is depression until other possibilities have been ruled out.

they just keep giving me anti depressants..he didnt even take my blood pressure last time he prescribed my pill..said he'd done it last time so wouldnt need too!!1(BTW he didnt cos i rang for a repeat prescription so it must have been about 7 months ago!)
noticed yesterday that whenever i 'need' to do something/get somewhere etc, i get into a flap and feel my blood boiling, then i end up shouting at dd..
sound like a hypercondriac(sp)..but i 'really' think theres more too it than PND?..i feel ridiculously sick again today.