I’m in my 40s and joined a local netball team for mums. The squad is big, there’s no real pressure to win and I’ve been made to feel so welcome.
What I’m struggling with is that it’s all a bit much. I know how this sounds and I am not precious, intolerant or daft! I swam competitively for years in a really competitive squad and my job is high pressured.
Theres always a million messages, cliques that are friendly, but still cliques and an overwhelming nerves before a game. A mum whose son plays football with my youngest has joined too after she found out I’d joined. She talks drivel on the sidelines when our kids play and she does the same here. There is no escaping her.
I’m not a quitter, but I have the overwhelming urge to do so. I keep thinking why am I doing this to myself?