Any good motivational fitness apps, where you get little stars for completing things, or tips for turning exercise into a habit?
I'm in a real mess. Turning 50 this year, last five years have been really stressful at home/work and I haven't been paying attention to myself at all. Now I'm back up to BMI 29, with arthritic hips/knees, pre-diabetic with high cholesterol and high blood pressure. Get out of breath walking up hill. Rubbish sleep as being fat makes me snore and I wake myself up. Feel very ashamed.
I know I need to get over myself and start fasting again, and do some exercise, but just thinking about it makes me want to cry. I really, really hate sport/exercise: it makes my joints hurt and I've always been really bad at it. I've forced myself to do stuff over the years (Couch to 5k, gym classes, rowing, cycling, walking, swimming, pilates), but have never found anything I enjoy. Anything competitive totally turns me off (so rowing didn't go well!). I damaged my elbow doing yoga during lockdown and have just got myself into a huge funk about everything. Literally crying rn, so maybe menopause mood swings not as sorted as I thought.
Haven't ever really got that 'endorphin high' - instead, exercise makes me feel rubbish while I'm forcing myself to do it, then really achy and depressed afterwards.
I really need help with my motivation. Don't have many local friends and my job is pretty full-on, so not much time in the week. I'm a really indoor person but super-social. Don't drink or eat meat. Will happily walk to the shops or to get the train, but feel like just 'going for a walk' is a horrible waste of life. Feel totally out-of-touch with my body. Anyone been here and got any tips for how to turn themselves around?