I have tried to do c25k since it came out, many times, probably about 15. Gave up every time. I hate running because I am fat, slow, go purple in the face and am very, very sweaty. But, it's good exercise because it's easy and cheap and I can listen to music or podcasts.
I finally finished the programme last summer - but I didn't get to 5k, only about 3.5 in half an hour. I was running on a treadmill that I bought on gumtree (in my bedroom with the curtains shut and a towel over the mirror and no one home) at 9.3km/ph (which is a speed I can walk at) so I felt pathetic and like I couldn't do this simple thing AT ALL. Who does C25K and doesn't get anywhere near 5k? What a loser. So, I stopped - I know, makes no sense at all, I think I have totally addled my mind with all the giving ups.
I went back to it two weeks ago and was amazed to find that I am actually fitter than I was last summer, I've only been walking and trying to do less sitting and stress less about actual exercise in lycra. I remain fat and sweaty and purple but the running for 25 mins was ok... so I decided to keep going until I had run 5k on the treadmill.
Yesterday I ran 5k on the treadmill at 9 km/ph. I am a bit tearful if I think about it. I didn't think I'd ever manage. I'm SO SLOW, and SO PURPLE and SO SWEATY, but, I did it.
I'm 53 and have high blood pressure, my heart rate is too high and I'm pretty stressed with assorted common-or-garden family/work/marriage dramas, I've been genuinely worried about my perma-fatness and perma-HBP and perma-worry about having a stroke or heart attack while also not being able to actually move my fat butt to solve these solvable issues.
Why am I not pleased with myself? I want to keep it up so I am healthier - because I'd REALLY like to do park run with my teenagers but I feel like I am so so rubbish and purple/sweaty that I worry that me exercising in public at a time of national stress would be an act of cruelty on the British Population.
would anyone be willing to pat me on my back? Because I need to feel pleased with myself so I keep this up! 120 days to build a habit, right? If I do 5k x3/week then that means I have 40 runs to make it a habit. I can do that, right?