Hi Truck and Lavender. Thanks
I managed to upset myself so much I woke in the middle of the night with a massive migraine and vomited profusely.
DH had to stay at home and look after DS and take DD to school. Argh. Not good.
It was so bad I had to go for the ultra hardcore migraine meds so I have slept most of today and only just woken. Clearly no Jillian workout today! No food either yet. Perhaps soup for dinner.
Ugh. I will feel yucky for days now. After effects of meds hangs around.
Hopefully I will manage Jillian tomorrow or the days after. We will see.
As you say Trucks "Dig Deep"! 
I know I am close. I just need more Jillian to firm up a bit.
My gap in the stomach muscles has gotten so much better. After DS it was 8 fingers (same as after DD). It is now less than 1 finger. Whilst its considered normal range it obviously means if you have any fat on your middle, it shows more. And I carry all of it on the middle as I had Gestational diabetes so the insulin excess laid down lots of fat around the stomach area. Yuk.
I know I am close. I can wear lots of my old clothes. And I can actually now get into trousers I have not worn since I fell pregnant with DD (that will be 5 years ago next month
).
And obviously I had both DC as an "older" mother and I hit the big 40 earlier this year. And that doesn't help either.
Sigh. I know I know. I am almost there. And DH pointed out that the stroller woman last night clearly had an eating disorder. She was almost my height and her leg were same thickness as my arms (my BMI is 23 so "normal"). And you could see all her ribs back and front through her top. So yes she probably thought I was very fat as opposed to "normal"
Thanks
for cheering me up
. It's been a shitty day migraine and all.