I have just returned from a lovely holiday with a good friend. I’ve been recovered from anorexia for about 6 years, yet I’ve still kept a healthy weight and I still have severe body dysmorphia so I can not trust what I see in the mirror. Im on the lower end of a healthy bmi, in what I consider a safe space for me. I don’t want to be triggering for anyone. I eat really healthily and I exercise gently. I’m at a bmi of 18.5 although over the summer I’ve gained a bit of weight but haven’t weighed myself so maybe I’m higher than this now but trying not to worry about it as I’m having a nice time. Clothes still fit. I can tell in photos that I look filled but I feel happy and not too worried. I’m quite recovered I’d say. I was at a major M&S Trainline supermarket on my way home and this random man said ‘excuse me miss’ so I made room for him - then he said ‘you have a lovely figure’ which is not an insult but I was slightly taken aback by it. I said ‘oh thank you’ sheepishly as I was embarrassed but then he followed up with ‘you have a massive bum darling’ which really shocked me. I think I just looked shocked and he said ‘whatever you are doing in the gym keep doing it as your bum is huge’ I was so shocked and hurt and upset because the words huge and massive are very triggering for me. But also I now don’t know if my body dismorphia is telling me I’m a healthy size when actually im massive! I only weigh 49 kg but these comments have thrown me. My friend has told me that in some cultures massive bum is a compliment but I just don’t know how to feel.