Binge eating support thread

[cheeseisthebest]

This is for those of us with binge eating disorder whether formally diagnosed or not.
Please comment if you would like to join and I hope its helpful.
Any reading or useful strategies would be great too.

That all sounds very similar to me.

I'm still in total binge mode from Christmas. I was doing brilliantly before Christmas and losing weight and now I'm just totally stuck in a downward spiral.

Just bumping cos thought people might be interested in this as January often time we all want to tackle our eating habits!

Thanks for starting this.
I’ve never been a healthy weight- always overweight.

I hide food & eat in secret but it has got really noticeable to me since I’ve been living with my partner. (No one to hide it from before!).

Has anyone watched the medical drama New Amsterdam? One of the Drs on there (Iggy!) has issues with compulsive eating and watching that really helped me to recognise my own problems and face up to them a bit.

It was really comforting for me to hear someone expressing how I feel, even though he’s fictional!

I am diabetic (2) btw. And have had to start a second medication recently because my blood sugar is too high. But this hasn’t had any affect on my ability to manage my eating.

It makes me feel disgusting and out of control.

Just found this thread. This has been me since the lockdowns, found the stress and boredom made it worse.

I've even started binging on the diet products I bought (very sweet) and thinking I might need to get rid of them.

I have read books and it said a good plan is just to eat at mealtimes and write a diary.

Well despite my smugness I have been bingeing all week. So incredibly disappointed in myself.

It's like an overwhelming compulsion isn't it. So hard to ignore

I find myself thinking about food items that are in the house and I can’t stop thinking about them until I’ve eaten them.

I do that too.

How is everyone? I've always binged but until the last few years it would be only once a week, but now it's gradually increased to every day!
I'm awake now as I'm so worried about the damage I'm doing now! I'm worried binging like this daily I'll be doing so much damage to my heart, and I won't be here to see my children grow up. I've been binging over Christmas on chocolate and I feel disgusted in myself. I was always under weight as I'd restrict my calories/diet and then binge once a week, I'm now 10 stone (so not really over weight) but it's creeping up!
Each day I have the intentions to be good, but it's like I'm addicted to chocolate/sugar and just junk. I'm ashamed to admit, I wake up and eat a healthy breakfast and within an hour I'm eating chocolate I've got to change.
I eat quickly in the kitchen while kids and dh are in the lounge, and it's one thing after another! I couldn't even tell you if I enjoy it, I just eat!!
I've told myself that from today every thing I eat I'm going to eat in front of the kids and dh, so if I open the cupboards for a snack I'm going to walk into the lounge to eat, I'm hoping this will help... But we shall see.
What else works for others?
I really am worried I'll have a heart attack, why am I doing this to myself

How has your day been misspacorbanne?
I know what you mean about waking up every day with good intentions and then it all goes wrong.

It's been an improvement thanks. How's your day been?
I have been very strict today and haven't touched chocolate which is my major downfall, but I have craved it! It's so addictive! Today is the first day I haven't binged in weeks! I know there will be times when I do, but I'm really determined to eat well as much as I can. My binging has been once a day, and I just feel so scared that I'm damaging my health. I've got to change. I barely slept last night worrying about it.
I'm counting today as a little win and hoping tomorrow is a good day too!
It's hard though, as if I eat one chocolate that's it I can't stop myself from binging, so I'm better not eating chocolate at all, but in the past I've gone afew days eating well and then rewarded my hard work with chocolate and then a binge followed. So for now I'm trying to avoid, but how do you ever get to the stage where eating a triggering food doesn't result in binging??

Can I join please? As evident from my user name, food isn’t my only issue! It’s probably my biggest one though. I’m a binger. There’s no moderation when I get going. I hate myself for it but don’t acknowledge what I’m doing until it’s done. I’ll also do it secretly. It’s worse if I am alone in the house. Otherwise I’m having to do it secretly and hide the evidence. I go through long stages of managing it while dieting but it always gets me in the end.

Hi @Clutterbusting a lot of what you say resonates with me.
I feel really ashamed of the secrecy side of it.

I’ve told my partner about it, to try to get things more out in the open.
He’s been lovely but I think it’s just totally beyond his experience.

I had a mini triumph today, which was that I turned down a Snickers in the local shop

I'm at the end of my tether. Sorry, have the read the posts but not able to offer any support right now. Just ate an entire box of Ferrero Rochers. About 16 of them. Maybe more. I regretted it as soon as I opened the box. I didn't want them anymore but I had to eat them because if I didn't eat them today I'd hsvr to think and worry about them tomorrow. That's insane, isn't it?

I've been eating some sort of chocolate gift box every day for the last month. I've put on about 4kg in December alone so I'm now obese based on my BMI. I've got plantar fascitis and that will only get worse the heavier I am. My feet hurt so much.

I think I need professional help but I can't get that at the moment. My head hurts. Sugar rush. Am also breastfeeding and I feel so bad about all the sugar that must be going into my breastmilk. Maybe I'm just imagining it but it makes ds antsy..

I don't want to write anymore. I want help. I want to stop.

I’ll join, reading the comments is really helping me try to change some habits. Hello everyone 🙂

@AliveAndSleeping I'm the exact same. I can't just leave a box of chocolates alone. And I will scoff the whole lot. I can't just have one.

Don't be too hard on yourself, when I was breastfeeding last year I craved sugary foods so much and could eat truckloads of it. A particular low point was Easter Sunday - half a tray of sticky toffee pudding with syrup sauce, 3 Easter eggs, additional chocolates, half a tray of chocolate fridge cake, three brownies.... In fact the whole Easter weekend was like that.

I did find a link between a sugary binge and my baby being really uncomfortable. (After that Easter Sunday binge he screamed all night) He was late diagnosed with GERD so a bit different to your LO.

Anyway, I'm really liking the comments here as I don't feel so alone. The guilt afterwards is awful, I find it so consuming. Always on my mind!

It's a addiction I'm sure and it's very difficult to overcome. I do still recommend BWRT, it's really helping me and worth the money.

@cheeseisthebest I'd not ever come across BWRT so I will be having a read later. Thankyou

Please pm if you want more info I'm no expert but it's worked for me.

@BellaTheDarkOverlord

Me please, I'll join.

Been slim until mid twenties when gained about 3 stone. When dh is away for the evening I treat it like a me night. I buy lots of treat food in like pringles, chocolate, donuts, diet coke. I can eat thousands of calories in an hour. I feel I have a mindset of if I don't finish this pack of 5 donuts tonight they'll be off tomorrow and it'll be a waste. I hide the packaging from dh so he doesn't know how much I ate. I'm 11 stone 3 now at my heaviest. I don't drink.

When I was younger when mum used to go to shops she'd come back with treat food. My brother and sister would immediately start eating it all. Got to the point where I would hide some for me for later. Then when I had a job at 16 I started buying my own and hiding it in a drawer under the bed. Donuts, chocolate, crisps, anything I liked. I never gained weight as I was heavily into a sport multiple times a week. I feel like this was the start of it.

This is me to a T. I could have written it. It is the same for me when my DH is away. I can develop a mind set where I can conquer it and lose weight but one slip and the flood gates open. My weight is now badly affecting my health and I am desperate.

@Flakjacketon Hello 😃 Just a message to say hello and I’ve found joining this thread really good. Even being part of a it and knowing I’m not alone is good support.

@cheeseisthebest Suggested reading into BWRT and that’s helped me too.

@cheeseisthebest

I'm not very good at explaining what BWRT is but it's sort of like hypnosis. It has worked for me. I've also read brain over binge.

I paid £1000 for a course , didn't work for me sadly. I was really angry at myself for the waste of money. I'm glad you found it helped

Hi just wondered how everyone is and how you're all getting on?

Oh god I feel I have lost all control.

After being good with eating, I've now unravelled. I've gained a stone in a month. Just this day alone I've eaten:

Weetabix and berries
Fry up breakfast - eggs, fried bread, hash browns etc etc
Four pieces of toast with cheese
2 chocolate bars
A pain au chocolat
A cornetto Ice cream

And I'm not even full. I feel disgusted with myself and I'm gaining so much weight, feel so uncomfortable etc etc.

I feel like I may as well eat eat eat as I've wrecked todays diet anyways.

It's actually scary how much I can eat