Feeling really awful

[FennyBridges]

I've tried to eat more since my last thread. I thought that if I started intermittent fasting it would encourage me not to worry about the eating decisions I'd have to make all day every day, and if I limited eating to 8 hours then I'd feel comfortable eating anything.

Well, my eating window got less and less do this week I gave it up. Which I thought was quite brave of me. I've been averaging about 1000 calories a day but today I ate some Christmas cake.

And I feel awful. Fat and stuffed full 😣 I don't know how to start being normal again.

I think I'm going to have to discuss this with someone in real life as no one has answered here! I am plummeting. Unless it's a weekend. I hit 2100 calories yesterday - first time in two months of eating at around 1000 or under.

Anyone?

Bumping for you x

I had to search for your previous thread on this.

I cannot offer any constructive advice past what you were given there, only to say yes, I think uou need to seek additional help. Your life should not be consumed by constant struggles with food and fear of being fat or eating normally. It's no way to live.

I think maybe you need to see your gp and explain just how intrusive and constant your food/weight battles are and how you're forcing yourself to live.

I'm not sure mumsnet is really the place any more and you need to seek proper help for your mental health issues.

Good luck 💐

You're probably right.

I would suggest you see your gp to get a referral to an ED specialist, or if you don't want to go down that route or it is unavailable for some reason, to look for a private therapist. I would try NHS services first though. I think you probably need some external help at this point.

Thank you. I suppose I was just hoping that someone might have this thing to say that might jolt me out of this. Some secret or some thing to say that no one had before, that would be like a revelation to me.