I have posted here in the past under a different username. I am reeling from my DH telling me a couple of weeks ago that he wants a trial separation, I had no idea what was coming. We are married for 20 years, together for 22, and have three kids who are between 10 and 18. I knew things weren’t great, DH has been very tense and negative lately and we’ve barely been intimate for 18 months, when he pretty suddenly stopped wanting physical contact. I asked him a few times what was going on, whether he no longer found me attractive but he said no. I chose to believe him but I was very worried. Then Covid struck and we were too busy trying to cope with its impact, including me and our oldest getting Covid/long Covid. Im still really unwell and he says that this is one reason why he has not said anything sooner but that he just cannot go on like this. I love him so much but a huge distance has opened up between us and I feel that he has betrayed my trust by not talking to me sooner. I don’t think he has had an affair but his mind is pretty much made up. He is taking about a trial separation for a year but when I said that I may not be able to wait a year because it’s too painful he said he was sorry, but he would still move out, so basically he did not give me a choice. I feel totally numb. He has taken the children on holiday while I stayed home because I am not well enough to travel, he was outwardly supportive (e.g. helping to arrange for my sister to come so that I would not be alone) but now that he is away he is busy planning his escape and even expects me to help him in this, and I just want to scream and cry. I know I’ve given this relationship all I’ve got, I’ve got no more to give so if what I have been giving is not enough then it is over. Any thoughts or virtual handholding/shoulders to cry on would be wonderful as I just don’t know how to get through the next months while still supporting my children and trying to get better so that I can go back to work….