Hi all,
firstly I’m sorry for airing this hear - I’m hoping that writing it will be some what cathartic but I’m aware it’s 99% not the right outlet for it.
I work for a small start up, I got an intro to the job as my partner knows the owner and founder - we live in a relatively small area and he’s (the boss) is very well liked and respected by most.
having known him personally our working relationship has always been ok - but it’s always been that, a working relation and at a push a casual friendship.
Following a client event this week, we walked home together as sickeningly - “he didn’t want me to walk through a park alone”. Just before we left the park he stopped. We’d been casually chatting before. And asked me what I think about affairs (we had a couple fired for a public affair and extortion fairly recently). I of course told him they were wrong - and then he kissed me.
He kissed me and I didn’t see I coming (at no point have I even thought about what he looks like). He walked me into the bushes, and proceeded to have sex with me. At no point did he hold me down but I equally didn’t run. I worried that he would fire me if I wasn’t seeming like I liked it enough - it’s almost like I helped him, while tears streamed down my face in a bush in a park. When he was finished we walked home and he tried to make casual conversation that he hoped not to see any baby look alikes in the area.
I walked home, stripped off my clothes and washed the dirt from under my nails. I sexually pleased my partner because we had made plans to earlier in the day. And now I’m questioning if I did this. Am I over reacting? And what the f* do I do now