That's how I'm feeling Naicehamshop. I'm getting there but very slowly. I didn't get anything done last night because the kids were here.
My novel is now about 18,000 words long. It's a series of 3 novellas that will come together to make one long novel. My fist one was about 37,000 words long so I need this to be in the same region.
I made the mistake of joining a writing challenge as part of another group I am part of. Write and publish an erotic short, don't advertise or do any promo and see how well it does.
Well, it did well. It's been out three days and has been borrowed from KDP or bought at least 3 times a day. I now feel I need to pay as much attention to that as I do my 'main' writing, since it's actually making me money.
I spend 2 months writing 37,000 words of what I believe is fairly decent dark, paranormal romance, with orginal ideas and no-one buys it. I spend one night knocking up 3,500 words of pure filth, that is pretty much just 50SOG but worse and people are lapping it up 
Since I actually need money, I'll see this challenge through to the end. I'm not good at short stories so it ended up as a To Be Continued, that I thought I'd just ignore unless it started selling. I never expected it to start selling.