Just embarrassed myself in a defining moment in supermarket. Need to vent.

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I'm so embarrassed.

2017,money wise, has been our worst year financially and a real struggle. Finally things are looking up and I'm optimistic.

So this am,wandering around Aldi, I basically picked up a few extras that I didn't need cos ya know I've got money in the bank now. Or so I thought.

Got to the till with my epic shop and my card wouldn't go through. It's OK I said I've got another card I'll just go and draw some out to make up the difference. There wasn't enough on that card either . And because they'd already put the receipt through they had to put the entire shop through again before they could start taking stuff off. So basically I caused chaos and every single customer and staff member there can now see my financial status, probably wondering why I'd shoved so much in in the first place.

The cashier was so helpful,non judgemental and considerate. I'm going to send her a thank you card (in the post,cos I'm never going there again). I think it was the fact that she had to do it all again whilst everyone looked that made me want the ground to swallow me up. I don't really mind handing stuff back when I've gone over. But I felt like,look at me, I've got two bank cards and cash and still can't afford to feed my family. The most annoying thing is I had enough cash sitting on my kitchen dresser,which I will now be using to buy the things that had to go back, and loads of booze as wine o'clock is starting early tonight. Plus when I got home I dropped 4 eggs, and then burst into tears.

I just feel like it's summed up my year which for various reasons has been...well...fucking awful. But it has made me more determined to make 2018 better in every way Inc. financially.

Sorry if this all sounds a bit silly. I know there are much worse problems. I just need to get it out. I hope I don't regret posting this 😢

That’s one reason it would be good if all shops had the Tesco self scan guns. At least it tots it up for you as you shop.

I’m ok now, but I can well remember asking the local shop keeper if I could have milk and bread until my benefits arrived the next day. I don’t think many shops would do that now.

I've had this. Several times. You are not alone. No decent human would judge x

1987. DH just got paid and we were left with £10 per week to pay for all food shopping. We had a newborn and a 3 year old. I wandered round Asda and picked up food and put it back. I put a few essentials in the basket feeling very tearful. A bag of frozen chips. A bag of frozen sausages. A 4 pack of budget beans. Budget bread Budget butter Budget jam

I got to the till and noticed a middle aged woman looking at me. She smiled. I smiled back wearily.
I loaded my items on the belt.

The lady paid for her goods and motioned to me.
'I think you've dropped something' she said, motion in to the floor. There was a £20 note on the floor. I picked it up and said 'oh no its not mine' and tried to hand it to her.
She put it back in my hand and said 'it's yours, im sure you must have dropped it'.
She walked off and I was asked for £7.47 from the lady on the till.
I paid and left the store feeling so confused but a crumpled £20 note in my hand.

I never ever forgot this and have paid it forward a few times in the same store when ive been able.

Some things stay with you for years and in the future, you'll remember today.
It won't be like this forever I promise. 💐