Thanks all
- to answer a few points, yes I am very much thinking of going self employed, I can teach piano. It pays at more than double my hourly rate compared to my day job, it can be done at my house, it's physically no more demanding than sitting on a chair and occasionally tapping a beat with a pencil :o :o and yes, it works around my health - I offer the parents flexibility so they can rearrange lessons if needed when the child has something else on, but I get the same advantage so it's best all round. :) I also have some ideas for group classes (art mostly) that I could run cheaply for other home ed kids, and I'm sort of freelancing for a lovely author (typing/editing) who I met through my mum. I'm hoping to get a good look at that Upwork site as well at some point. Obviously I'm not pursuing any extra work now, but there are a few options for the future. In the past simply advertising on a local FB group has got me some pupils so hopefully it wouldn't be too difficult. I'm keeping an eye out for other places to advertise too, local community noticeboards etc.
TBH I don't think another job, as in being employed outside the home, would work right now. We talked about redeployment (I work for the council) but there isn't anything as I need minimal hours with minimal travel. I'm kind of frustrated, because all I want is to KNOW what the heck is going on and to be able to move on and start the next stage of my life. But then, in my current state I am unable to really do anything anyway. I've been in what I call relapse mode since early last year - triggered by a virus - and TBH I'm starting to realise that this isn't actually relapse anymore... it's just how I am now. In other words, the illness has progressed, and my baseline is much worse than it was before. Shit, I've only just actually realised that. 
As the GP said, I need to accept it (one actually told me to just quit but that would be financial suicide TBH). I am hoping to get counselling and luckily there are lots of organisations around who do wellbeing work which might help. Needless to say my mental health - fragile at the best of times - has suffered a lot lately. I am trying mindfulness which is helping a bit as I'm trying to accept it all. I'm supposed to have a pain management workshop too but ironically I'm not sure I'm well enough to get there at the moment! I managed in the past, and that was at St Barts so it was a much worse journey, but I wasn't as ill then as I am now.
Sorry I really keep droning on don't I! I'm not asking for sympathy etc - actually I've kind of reached a stage where I can be realistic and sort of detached about it. :)
NK that sounds incredibly stressful. Hope you find something better soon.
Em YAY!!!
Well done. Enjoy that pastry!
Girl happy to hear about the house! So exciting! :o
Pointless ouch that sounds horrible. Agree, doctor is a bigger priority than groceries :o can you order a Tesco delivery? Sometimes you can even get one for the same day, if you order before midday and choose an evening slot.
Adora my parents had an ancient spin dryer, we also just put a pot underneath it as the spout was near the bottom. It used to spin so hard it would shuffle across the room by itself :o
Welcome LeBoob and Wheely! :)