@OldPodge
Thanks so much to all for being ‘with me’ last night. Did sleep a bit and temperature is down this morning. Friend and daughter in law have texted this morning. DIL is coming round when she finishes work. 111 never called back but will call GP when they open this morning. Still feel utterly rotten but less scared. It’s made me think of how I can become more resilient being on my own and getting older.
I'm glad you got some sleep & your temperature is down a bit this morning!
You have a DIL, so hopefully/presumably at least one of your children living near by?
II think some resilience is a good thing, but you'll also need to build in help, emergency contacts etc
I have 2 friends with keys & anyone else has their numbers. My main contact came and waited with me until the ambulance arrived, her DH went to my house to pick up my hospital bag & bits I needed, plus check the house was ok & locked up (it was obvious this wasn't going to be a quick trip to A&E then back home! I had community care/rehabilitation team visiting each morning until I was able to care for myself & my neighbours were great too.
It's certainly made me look at other aspects of my day to day life (stairs into the house, within the house) and appreciate the things that I do have (bus on doorstep that goes to the hospital - follow up visits, as I couldn't drive for 4 months and Drs, chemist, supermarkets in easy walking distance.
It has made me feel 'old' & vulnerable though, not helped by ongoing issues such as very high blood pressure.
Which is very different to your situation I know, but I just though might help you a little as you feel worried being alone when not well, which I totally understand!
Your own DC, DIL & close friends I hope will give you some reassurance that help is nearby, even if it's just checking up on you & calling emergency services if necessary! I've certainly had my moments after the accident, but also during covid!!
Look after yourself 💐