QuietBat It sounds as though you haven't made peace with your decision not to vaccinate yourself.
Fortunately, the NHS will allow patients to defer, or even cancel numerous times without it affecting their eligibility. What I'm saying is, you don't have to make a concrete decision now, your offer of a jab will remain open.
I don't agree that patients are being pressured by their gps to attend. Follow up texts or letters are normal for routine treatments offered on an NHS programme.
I think you would benefit greatly from enforcing your own "break" from vaccine information. You can re visit the issue in say two weeks. Take the pressure of yourself. Avoid reading any news reports on the CV vaccine, Avoid social media posts and have a prepared reply for anyone in RL inviting you to discuss it (please don't take this personally, I don't want to discuss it) for example.
I agree, you have every right to keep your medical records confidential from colleagues. There would be a record at work if relevant, with data protection.
By allowing yourself a mental break from the issue of vaccination, your anxiety will lessen. At the moment you seem a bit fixated and it's feeding your anxiety. Sorry if that sounds patronising, I mean it kindly.
Chronic anxiety is awful to live with, you have my sympathy. I hope you can find the inner peace you crave 